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Grace M2: I'm basically just your average teenager.. I have a passion for writing and actually work for our town's local paper. I'm working on a book at the moment called "Beneath the Ashes." It's about a girl battling an eating disorder.I'm not sure when it will be finished - probably a long time from now since I am so busy. Anyway, if you want to get to know me better, keep on reading. I'd like any comments, criticism, etc.

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Saturday, July 30, 2011

.Faded.

To be selfish is not who I am, yet I wonder, why me? Something good, something special, something that makes me happy comes my way and when I grab it, giving it all I have and accepting it fully, it gets taken away. I then lose part of me. I get lost in life. I lose trust. I call him my life, my world, my everything. I will never forget the day he told me about his love for me. I’ll also never forget the day I noticed the spark in his eye had gone away, when he didn’t see me anymore, when I was no longer anything special. I guess his search was over. He knew he had me and stopped fighting. I’m in the palm of his hand, pleading for him to love me. Physical love, emotional love. I need it and I’d like to believe I deserve it. I’m praying to God that this wonderful gift, this amazing man, this one that holds my heart, won’t get taken away. Something good has to last. Please, God.

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